Sunday, August 17, 2008

Don't Preach You Sob Story

I'm Kelsey. And the only reason i know that much is because it's on my birth certificate.

Kind of sad that the only sole fact we all know in our lives is thanks to other people.

I think I'm too dramatic sometimes, then again I probably have the right to be. I can't always measure things fairly and even though I try to be levelheaded about things, no one really knows. I'm black. Give me the whole "You-talk-like-a-white-girl/act-like-a-white-girl" shit if you want, but I don't care. I got over trying to please people with my cultural knowledge a long time ago. News flash: NO ONE'S only one or the other.

I laugh a lot. I smile a lot. I cry when I get angry, which is embarrassing as hell. I'm really goofy, really loud, really stubborn and really headstrong. Underneath that all, I'm just a girl who still, even after 18 years of life, doesn't know WHO she is. i get mood swings and I always think they'll never end, but they do. I feel the happiness come back and I wonder when it'll fade again. For someone as silly as I am I sure do have a bad habit of over thinking the little things.

I'm not profoundly wise or originally gifted. I don't think blogging is super sexy. Honestly, forgive me, but I don't know why i made one of these. probably because in a way, I do want to spread how I think, what i feel. i want to change the world. but doesn't everybody?

We can't do it all alone, which is a bad habit of mine; always thinking I have to do something on my own. But now...I'm not so sure.

I think I made this because I'm starting a completely new chapter of my life in a few days. And what i really want is to be able to let go of the past, even though my future's just as scary.

To sum it up...I don't know. You tell me when you figure it out, because I have no idea.

Nice to meet you :)

(I love this spellcheck thing! :D)